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I don't know if it is the weather or what, but I'm acting much more like it is May than February.
I couldn't tell you why, but I've recently been feeling some early pangs of Beltane energy. Earlier this month, I told somebody that I have been interested in for a couple of years that I would have asked her out if only I were not about to be leaving Chicago shortly. This person, who shall remain nameless, caught my interest quite some time ago, but the timing never worked out for me to act on that interest. Either she was unavailable for a new relationship or, if she wasn't, I was in the early stages of a new relationship, which makes me temporarily unavailable. Last Fall, I promised myself that if my next job kept me in Chicago, I would finally do something about that. I don't get the sense that she would have recoiled in horror had the circumstances permitted. Ah, well...
So, fine, that's an interest that has been around for quite some time. Doesn't say anything about a trend in and of itself. However, in the past couple of weeks, I have formed two proto-crushes. "What is a 'proto-crush'?" you might ask. Well, I consider a "proto-crush" to be the state where I have just met somebody (or just started having significant interactions with somebody that I may have met in passing before) and find that there is a definite stirring of interest on my part. In a proto-crush, I don't know the person quite well enough for a actual crush to have developed, but I can sense that the potential is definitely there... and may become reality with more contact and interaction. In one of my new proto-crushes, I have absolutely no idea if the person would have reciprocal interest. None at all. In the other case, I get the definite signs of interest from her e-mails, attempts to schedule social time together (even if it is only group social time at this point), etc. I just get a good vibe.
Amusingly, all three people mentioned herein -- the one on-going interest and the two proto-crushes -- are local to Chicago but they move in completely different social circles. I highly doubt that any of these people know any of the others, and I would be surprised if they had any mutual friends. Unfortunately, it does look quite likely that I really am leaving in less than four weeks -- I have an appointment with the Consulate-General on Tuesday morning to submit my visa application -- which means that I guess I really cannot do anything to act on these fledgling crushes before I go. *sigh*
I couldn't tell you why, but I've recently been feeling some early pangs of Beltane energy. Earlier this month, I told somebody that I have been interested in for a couple of years that I would have asked her out if only I were not about to be leaving Chicago shortly. This person, who shall remain nameless, caught my interest quite some time ago, but the timing never worked out for me to act on that interest. Either she was unavailable for a new relationship or, if she wasn't, I was in the early stages of a new relationship, which makes me temporarily unavailable. Last Fall, I promised myself that if my next job kept me in Chicago, I would finally do something about that. I don't get the sense that she would have recoiled in horror had the circumstances permitted. Ah, well...
So, fine, that's an interest that has been around for quite some time. Doesn't say anything about a trend in and of itself. However, in the past couple of weeks, I have formed two proto-crushes. "What is a 'proto-crush'?" you might ask. Well, I consider a "proto-crush" to be the state where I have just met somebody (or just started having significant interactions with somebody that I may have met in passing before) and find that there is a definite stirring of interest on my part. In a proto-crush, I don't know the person quite well enough for a actual crush to have developed, but I can sense that the potential is definitely there... and may become reality with more contact and interaction. In one of my new proto-crushes, I have absolutely no idea if the person would have reciprocal interest. None at all. In the other case, I get the definite signs of interest from her e-mails, attempts to schedule social time together (even if it is only group social time at this point), etc. I just get a good vibe.
Amusingly, all three people mentioned herein -- the one on-going interest and the two proto-crushes -- are local to Chicago but they move in completely different social circles. I highly doubt that any of these people know any of the others, and I would be surprised if they had any mutual friends. Unfortunately, it does look quite likely that I really am leaving in less than four weeks -- I have an appointment with the Consulate-General on Tuesday morning to submit my visa application -- which means that I guess I really cannot do anything to act on these fledgling crushes before I go. *sigh*
